What is the meaning behind “Who am I? Someone that’s afraid to let go, uh You decide if you’re ever gonna let me know (Yeah)”? SAD! by XXXTENTACION
- by imrk
- April 12, 2023
X’s romantic insecurity was presumably caused by his relationship with Geneva Ayala, his former girlfriend whom he allegedly abused . On his 2017 album 17 , he named the closing track “Ayala (Outro)” after her, and on the track “Carry On,” he rapped about his inability to let her go, despite the pain she caused him: I’m cut open, her fingers in all my stab wounds And if she could she’d probably dance on my grave Inside my head I see your face I fuckin' hate that I love you still Geneva has been spotted on a number of occasions listening to X’s music on her Instagram and Snapchat stories. She has also posted a variety of pictures implying that she misses him.